About Me

I am here to show you my journey. So far it has been a tough rough but I am very excited to share it with you. I was very scared at first, but this is something I needed to do, for myself. I am so inspired by so many people around me that I only wish to be half the inspiration to at least one person. The path I am on has many highs and many more lows but I know that where I will finish will be worth every single minute of every sacrifice that has been made. Always have faith in yourself but put that faith to good practice. I will make it.. tell your momma! ;)

12.23.2010

is it worth it...?

I'm here. They're there. Something happens.. And I can't do anything about it.  Is it worth it? I mean, is this all worth it? Any of it? Me living in "the city of dreams", is it worth not being with my family? Not being there in times of need? I fully understand that if I were there, I probably would have the same capacity that I have now of doing anything but just being around that person that needs your support makes all the difference. At least for me.  I know I would want that.  That is what I miss most.  Being surrounded by the people that I KNOW love me.  We don't even have to talk... Just stand next to me.  The presence of these people bring me such peace and joy. And today, I can't do that to one of the people that means the most in my life.  Why? because I'm here.  Is it me being selfish? I hate this.  I just want to be there.  I want to help- do something. My tears won't stop-  they just keep falling like clockwork.  I'm sure it's going to be a great compliment for work.  I'm a mess today.  I wish I could blink and be in Miami. If life could be that simple, eh? My apologies if this didn't make much sense... I'm all over the place today.  
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  1. Doku the Uber GeekJanuary 1, 2011 at 11:17 PM

    You're not being selfish. It's only natural to feel that way someone who care about is suffering. Sometimes hearing a loved one's voice during the jacked up times is beneficial when you are physically unable to be with that person.

    ::Hug::

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  2. shucranJanuary 10, 2011 at 4:32 PM

    Mi estrellita dorada.......sure it's worth it!!!
    Tu lo sabes......no desmayes.....todo el mundo tiene momentos dificiles, tu no eres la excepcion.
    Debes saber que te queremos con todo nuestro corazon, solo piensa en nosotros cuando te sientas "down", y recuerda que siempre estaremos a un "phone call away".
    Te adoro, cuidate siempre and keep it up...that you can make it!!!

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