so anyway, i recently met a new friend who is also an amazing make-up artist.. unbelievable! her work is honestly, faultless. well, she has been placed in my life for a reason, i believe, and for a good one. although we have only spoken a few times, she inspires me. to be me. and that i am enough. as cheesy as it sounds, its true. the first time we sat down and actually spoke to her, i just let it all out, it was like i was speaking to a sister who knew what i was feeling. and she understood. she was actually the one who asked if i had walked into any agencies and dumbfounded when i said no... she also said 'what the hell are you waiting for?!'- so last night, we agreed that by the end of next week, i would go into at least one agency. just one. you know, a stepping stone? just talking about it freaks me out.
and you know, i don't know what is wrong with me. why am i so freaking insecure? and please, what i am about to say is not out of conceit or cockiness at all... i am just speaking to speak... people tell me i am beautiful or gorgeous all the time. and the thing that REALLY baffles my mind, i really get compliments when i am not wearing any make-up or just going to the gym. which is when i think i look the worst. i actually think it had to do with something i experienced growing up? i compared myself a lot to other girls. i mean, i still do. clearly. i mean, it is what it is. right?
We all have insecurities and our own worst critic. You aren't a wimp, you're human. We all fear rejection. We just need to adjust the way we look at things. A rejection could be God just removing a potential stumbling block and moving you towards where you are meant to be.
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